Here goes…
(Low day)
So this is all new to me. I’m not even sure I have read a blog before, but here I am.
I had considered writing a book but again I wouldn’t know where to start. Keeping track of all my thoughts and feelings is almost impossible and I find myself writing stuff down on the closest bit of anything I can write on, so at least here I can keep everything all in one place.
My blog will be about as bi polar as my play list. “I’m a million different people from one day to the next”.
My mental health is a battle for me currently and I’m super tired of the inconsistency in my mood. I had a low mood day today. Which is the reason for me starting this. I get a naggy feeling of wanting to escape, sometimes out of my own skin, but being a single mum of 3 little ones at home, no license and level 4 lockdown I cant even jump in the car and drive anywhere.
Writing seemed like a more healthy way to clear my mind than reaching for a different kind of means. Addiction is something I will eventually write about, along with: abuse, grief, childhood traumas, life traumas in general, change, depression, anxieties, relationships, eating habits, spirituality and the many rabbit holes. My life. Its ever changing, always seems to have more downs than up’s but not from lack of trying. I try not to slip into a victim mindset but on the low days the mind is a heavy load and not an easy place to step above from.
I think writing is going to be good for me. I seem to be able to get way more out rather than talking, and I do love a good vent!
Hang on for the ride if you decide to tag along, either way I’m locked in and ready to go.
-D